Boring post alert!
I was bored, too lazy to study for Microecons exam which is happening this coming Thursday, and I thought it’d be too early to study (HAH!) since Management exam just finished this morning and I figured I needed a break on studying (When I actually didn’t study that hard for the past few days :P). Then I ventured to the world of Facebook, browsing people’s profiles and pictures and etc. I came across this group picture of my former class in high school, that was taken after I left for my Pre-U studies. For a moment, it seemed like I was brought back to the past; to those times when me and my friends would copy the smart, dilligent kids’ homeworks during breakfast and lunch break, those times when we would pull pranks on teachers, those times when me and my friends would stay back for Chemistry remedial exams.
People always said high school is the best time of your life. Well, if you asked me, I wouldn’t completely agree with it, when most people would. I notice that the people that I hang out with now, still maintains a close relationship with their high school friends; some don’t even have close friends other than their high school friends. It’s quite the opposite for me, I don’t maintain close relationship with my high school friends, and at some point I would say I do not even care if I don’t.
Imagine this: I grew up in this small, suburban neighbourhood for over twelve years, went to kindergarten with the same group of friends, went to elementary school with the same group of friends, and also to the junior high school and senior high school. I admit I was kind of nerdy back in elementary; I was a late bloomer, though I didn’t give a rat’s ass. Things started to turn around during Year 9 or 10. I thought I was too cool for everyone else. I seemed to have more general knowledge than the kids around me. I was the trendsetter, I even noticed some juniors copying my style; the way I walk, the way I talk, the way I write, etc. I didn’t feel like I fit in there, though some of my friends were (and still are) really nice people. I wanted more. I was dying to get out of that place.
I found more friends outside of school. People from church, second and third degree friends, and I found myself having much more fun, I even found a best friend (who is still my best friend now!) and it helped a little. But I still wanted more. Then I finally found it, my golden ticket, I left high school for my Canadian Pre-U studies. And there I was, having the time of my life. And I couldn’t be bothered to go around missing my high school times.
If I could go back to my high school times, all I wanted to do is to keep a closer relationship with them, and maintain it. I don’t want to be remembered as a cocky person; I don’t want them to forget that I existed, that I was one of their high school mates. But then again, I don’t quite regret of what I’ve missed on high school, cus if not I wouldn’t be where I am now, surrounded by friends that I’m comfortable with and actually clicks with me :P
Love ya ppl! xo